We’ve already crossed that 1 year and a half of waiting to be pregnant and we’re still not. I originally wanted to chronicle this journey of mine to educate and share my experiences to others but failed to do so as life happened. See, I’m not really a writer so in order to write I need to sit down, focus and be consumed by an urge to write something.
Before I continue, allow me to say that this journey is a battle and not an easy one. I’ve had my share of not-so-proud-of-myself self-pity moments as well as the crazy cry-one-day-laugh-the-next moments. This story has tested my limits physically, mentally and most especially, spiritually. And, as I write, I know I am still being tested each day but, in all this, God has showed me He is and forever will remain sovereign.
In my last entry about this I listed the possible causes of recurrent miscarriage. Ever since that time, I underwent a number of tests that thankfully, all turned out to be negative but one that gave borderline results. This test is my APAS lab test.
In keeping with an informative format of sharing my story, allow me to define APAS. APAS or Antiphospholipid Antibody Syndrome is “a group of clinical manifestations associated with the presence of high levels of antiphospholipid antibodies in the blood … associated with recurrent thromboses (formation of blood clots) in the venous or arterial circulation” (www.myvmc.com/diseases/antiphospholipid-antibody-syndrome-apas). This means that it is possible (because of my borderline results) that when an embryo attaches itself to my uterine wall to get nutrients delivered by my blood, that connection could clot and thereby, cut off the oxygen and nutrients needed by the embryo to grow.
With my lab results, my doctor’s recommendation is to take aspirin, a blood thinner, once I get pregnant. However, after more than a year and a half wait, my REI doctor is recommending additional procedures and one of which is to check with an immunological doctor. The reason being is that one’s immunity can affect pregnancy before, during and after it happens, the details of which merits a totally different entry. However, if you want to be informed, I recommend visiting www.natural-fertility-info.com/immune-infertility.html.
We’ve already consulted with an immunological doctor and have begun the second phase of this journey. I’m not sure how long this will last but something inside me tells me we’re down to our last stretch. Ofcourse, the outcome of all this I am absolutely certain I want to go in one direction but, I know, whatever the outcome will be is all under God’s will. Still I pray, and invite you to pray with me, that I will be able to write about better days and answered prayers soon.
