My last entry here was one joyful moment for O and I. And since then, a major thing happened that didn’t exactly shook my faith but somehow reminded me of my ever growing dependence on God. Isang MALAKING PASASALAMAT talaga kay Lord and how He changed my forever nega attitude. Siguro kung nangyari ito sa akin ng hindi pa ako Christian, mukmok to the highest level ang drama ko at mega-iyak sa tabi thinking na AKO NA ang pinagkaitan ng langit at lupa. To which I say to my old self, “O sige… ikaw na!”
I’m sure everyone had his/her fair share of nega moments. And, might I say, those moments are really just the worst. We live the moment THINKING of all the ‘bad’ things that happened, FORMING this belief that the world is out to get you, CHOOSING to be sad because (of your so-called truth that…) the world is indeed out to get you and BELIEVING that you’ll only be happy when the world undoes what it has done to you. Eventually, yes, you will get better but by that time you have missed so much that it feels like you’re starting point involves a lot more things to do than you originally expected which sets you back a time or two.
THIS, friends, is the long road to recovery and you know what, I know of a shortcut. It’s spelled… J-E-S-U-S.
The fact is we all need time to recover. It’s not called a process for nothing, you know. The only difference with all of us, however, is the length of time it takes to be okay and the actions we choose to do while we are not okay. This is where Jesus changed me. He gave me a renewed point of view on things.
Bad stuff happens but the world is not out to get me so there is NEVER a reason to despair. I may cry for a while but there is no reason for me to frown the succeeding days. My story does not end on my failures. Because God never promised that He will leave me to fail. God’s promise (as my life verse states…) is:
“For I know the plans I have for you”, declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” – Jeremiah 29:11
So how can I allow myself to spend time in such a tragic season of self-pity and negativity? If this is God’s promise, then I want to be there. THERE where prosperity, hope and my future awaits. THERE where He will turn my mourning into dancing and my sadness into joy. THERE where the purpose of everything will be revealed. THERE where His glory is proclaimed.
With all this revealed, I cannot imagine how to live life apart from Him? Jesus is the complete therapy. He is my strength during the times I’m not okay. He brings me hope while I am still down. He brings me joy, confident that His plans for me will prevail and are the best. ;)
